hiatus

a few recent pictures from my phone. <3 instagram.

forgive me, i probably won't post for a while. i'm off to figure things out.

peace!

camera

It's been a while since I've used my camera, and right now it's in storage. I feel very weird without access to it. I am itching to shoot things.. I have to keep pushing the thought from my mind.

One day when I have cash, I'm going to buy some prime lenses and an even better camera body. Oh! I could do so many lovely things!

It's been a while since I've shot a wedding or any session at all, and I'm missing it tonight. I don't think Utah is the right place for me to photograph people, I swear I'm going to make it to Washington and maybe there my wedding venture will explode!

pictures of emily

i have 3 weeks until arizona. today has been kind of rough. i really miss my independence and my job. i miss my computer, and my camera.

my sister looked so beautiful today and i wanted to do a shoot with her. i took a few snap shots on my phone, but oh, if i'd only had my camera and 20 minutes! here are a few of the shots:







this stupid blog is frustrating me. i've been trying to make a new template (which is hard given that i'm not even using my computer/photoshop/resources) and it's not working very well. thanks for being patient with it.

well, i'm in a bad mood today so i won't post very much in order to avoid emotional ranting that i delete 2 hours later when i'm back to reality and feel  highly embarrassed at my behavior on the Internet..

I got out

To update you after that last miserable post, I've moved. I couldn't stay in Utah anymore. I'm now back in Texas with my family, although I will be moving to Arizona in about 3 weeks. I'm happier already. :)

My parents both make good food. Here is some curry we enjoyed today thanks to my dad. It has sausage in it from a deer he shot himself when he went hunting for the first time this year.



I have a lot of free time now, without my job (tears). I have spent a lot of it watching all the tv shows I missed during their summer hiatus and stalking people on the internet. There are so many insanely talented and interesting people online. I miss my gorge Mac which is in storage (THANKS DANAE/BLAIR!) for a while, all the blogs look way better on a Mac than a phone. Ah well!

In a few months when I get things situated in my life, and figure out where exactly my new life will be and consist of, I want to contribute to the Internet more. Reconstruct my blog. Be creative again. Take pretty pictures, and make my living place beautiful and chic.

I need a titch of time to heal properly from the past year and a half, get in touch with my Self again, and give myself a second chance at life.

It's so strange to me how far i am away from myself. I told my girls when I quit my job that I hope someday they want help because I know who they can be if they get help. I told them that's why I had to leave, because I need and want help because I can't be who I know I really am, who I'm capable of being, unless I get a bit of help.

Working at that rehab center changed my life. I eventually want to run a program myself! I think I would want it to get to the cause of negative behavior, help girls with the fundamental issues that have led to their acting out, not just focus on changing their behavior.

Anyway, I'm going to go shopping with my mom now. I'll probably post again soon:)