Sunday, August 29, 2010

a few lists, a few thoughts

collage

today i counted all of the places that i actively (as in usually every week) record my life:
+2 spiral notebooks (spiritual/therapy journals)
+1 hard cover journal (for plans, dreams, goals)
+1secret journal in a word file (sometimes handwriting takes too long. this is for an easy expression of the most private and personal things)
+2 blogs (1 for photography business, and this one)

frequently i have intense urges to WRITE. maybe it's this subconscious belief that in writing i'll find answers or enlightenment to my predicaments. maybe it's because i need personal validation. sometimes i feel confused or cluttered or scattered and writing is the way i can purge all of the thoughts and feelings that are filling me up.

lessons life is teaching me right now, which i'm attempting to learn:
-what grace is
-how to trust God

things i've realized lately:
-it's time to chill out
-i'm a stress addict
-the grass is never greener. i can't keep looking forward to the next pasture, because i'm missing the goodness immediately surrounding me

i'm so focused on photography right now but there are a lot of other things i'm interested in. maybe i can focus on some of these things this fall:
-writing
-playing piano (i want to LEARN again)
-reading
okay i can't think of very many right now, forgive me, but my brain is dying a little. i pulled 2 all nighters this week.

today i went to church.
it's nice to belong.

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