just another day.. feeling a bit more hopeful

as i was going to bed last night i decided to scour the internet one more time for potential jobs. i finally found a site that looked like it had some promising options. i passed out around 1am and then i woke up at 6am, restless, my mind racing. i composed my entire resume in my head (it's been a while, i needed to update) and then when i was conscious enough to realize what was bugging my sleep, i dragged myself out of bed. star for the calendar, i read scriptures this morning. i rediscovered this beautiful verse:

D&C 123:17: Therefore, dearly beloved brethren, let us cheerfully do all things that lie in our power; and then may we stand still, with the utmost assurance, to see the salvation of God, and for his arm to be revealed.

i realized i've been resisting the "cheerfully" bit of this advice. boo. maybe that'll make the difference in how things are going, because i have been anything but cheerful for a while, generally speaking.

at 7am i did laundry (yay!) and at 8am i started making a delicious hot breakfast for everyone.. banana/chocolate chip/wheat pancakes, cheesy eggs, and sausage. Mm mm mm mm good. food prep/clean up takes forever. i finished the event at 10am.

danae had the kids play freeze mop. basically they mop the floor while fun music blasts, and danae randomly stops it. they have to freeze. they were laughing and mopping up a storm, even sophia.

other things i did today:
-finally updated my resume in real life as opposed to the half dream state i did it in earlier.
-applied for a job. don't worry, i'll try for a few more, not just one. but the application was freaking looong.
-ran around on the internet for a while.
-lusted after miscellaneous items on etsy, as well as photography equipment (i want the 24mm f/1.4 SO SO SO bad. sometimes drool slips out when i look at the eye candy it produces).
-ate leftover delicious pancakes.
-stalked on facebook for a bit.
-played kissing and tickling games with sophia.

fyi, it's cooled down in utah enough for me to wear my sweats inside. hallelujah, although i feel like a scrub. i'm hoping i get the job i applied for today because it'll force me to dress nicely. heck, just dressing every day would be an improvement, i live in basketball shorts and sweats.. but only because i can.

i am finally forming a plan of attack, perhaps the vastness of the rest of my life waiting to be filled won't be as scary as i've imagined.

my little cousin sarah took these on sunday after a quickie photo shoot (i'll post pics on my photography blog asap):