summer

thank God for summer. i spent yesterday afternoon at the pool laying out on a towel plugged into my ipod. it felt so good because i've been working hard and needed a little break to recharge. and yes, wow, i just made two references to myself being like electronics. i'm a NERD!!!!

tomorrow i'm signing a contract for the townhouse i found to live in for the next year! i'm so excited. i hope my roommate is cool to live with. i've had my own room for the past year and before that i shared with my best friends. it's been years since i've roomed with a stranger.

i'm overwhelmed with emotions when i think about moving. after things fell apart last summer i found refuge in south jordan with my uncle's family, and now i'm finally ready to head back out on my own but i am scared. i've been trying hard to move past what happened last summer, but i still feel disconnected from my life before i was assaulted.

the disconcerting thing as i discussed in my last post is the disconnect- everything that happened in my 21 years before the assault still feels like a movie, not my life. i am shocked when i remember the past and realize it's mine.

that's why i'm a bit apprehensive (while simultaneously being excited and ready). i am leaving the only place i feel connected to, and i'm going out on my own. i may be nervous but i'm strong. mostly i feel excited. who knows what the next phase of my life will bring. i have hope that it will be wonderful!